Conceived with so much love

At the beginning of the summer of 2022, a lovely friend from Australia told me there will come a new baby in my life and it will be conceived with so much love.

I thank the universe a lot, for all the signs I have received about when I will get pregnant. For me, it is so exciting to always receive signs and to know that I understand the messages clearly. When people disbelieve in signs they really should walk next to me on my path so they understand how real it is. I am so grateful that I have this connection to notice those signs and the way the universe communicates with us. And yes my eggs really wanted to make a baby but in the last few months, they were going crazy. I even started to activate the eggs of my friends around me who weren't even thinking about having kids.

I felt this big energy about making a baby on our vacation in September 2022 in Toscane, Italy. A lot of my best friends have Italian origins and they really vibed around the fact that I totally visualized it in their home country. They send out their energy with love and passion from Belgium to Italy. My vision was so clear. I knew how it would happen and around which date, my eggs would be ready to make a baby. So many loved ones felt the same energy and vibed around me getting pregnant. So not only made with love from us but so many souls already love you before you were even made my little baby.

As honest as I am, I told every single detail to your dad in pieces. He wasn't ready yet to become a dad. He wanted to start having kids next year after he turned 30. This gave us some discussions because my vision and the vision of others were already so clear that it couldn't be any different way that the magic of making you would happen in Italy. By saying this know that I have not forced your dad into making you. You are literally conceived with so much love and we were both aware of making you.

As our beautiful journey to Italy came closer the signs were clearer than ever before. At work, I found a little bracelet with mommy on it and I knew it. It has been written in the stars that I will become a mommy soon. Already since I was young, I said that I will be a mommy when I am 27 years old. Was it my instinct or me manifesting my life? I think both, but one thing is sure I can trust my instinct very well and I am so lucky that I am a great manifestor because no struggle has stopped me to find your dad and share so much happiness and love together. Little baby, I hope you already feel how deeply we love you and how happy we are that you are growing in me. We have so much love, wisdom, and happiness to share with you.

After finding the bracelet, I went sitting next to the woman that was the first one pregnant in Ikea. I found that out because my colleague knew this fact. That night I went drinking with my best friend, who just had a baby and she was wearing a necklace with the words mommy on it. Meanwhile, your daddy was celebrating a bachelor party of a good friend. The couple, their wedding date is 08.10.22, right on the date of us being two years together. He finds out the day after my signs that the woman is pregnant. Of course, that information is a sign in my life haha. On that same day, I found a little baby book in Ikea and a few hours later a little baby toy. The past two days, all of those signs gave me the message that no matter what it is meant to be.

Each day, someone would speak to me about when I will be pregnant. Not kidding everyone, from my boss to the neighbors of the parents of your dad. Your dad’s best friend said without realizing his goodbye and told us to have a lot of fun making a little baby. A few days before making you, I found a praying mantis inside the house. I was taking a shower and I came out of it. I heard the sound of someone knocking on the door so I opened the door to ask your dad if he knocked on the door. And there he was the praying mantis. What an amazing gift to find him there and to receive a sign that I needed to relax, lean into peace, and enjoy life. I am still so amazed and in love with this little friend. Of course, I released him back into nature and said goodbye. That night we went looking for a restaurant and I find this restaurant called Zenzero. It means ginger and ZenZero means peace of mind. What is funny because ginger in Dutch is ‘gember’ and you say my name Ember so I have been called gember already a lot in my life and I love the herb too. So, how I received the message was Ember bring peace to your mind. We ate and really become so peaceful while enjoying life together. If I can promise you something is that this vacation in Italy was the best one ever, we share so much love, passion, and happiness together. I love the fact too that people from home could see how happy we were on our vacation. And little did they know that we made you which made it the best and most perfect vacation for us ever.

10 September 2022, a beautiful house in Toscane between the olive trees. My eggs were going crazy about making a baby so we had a long conversation about it. So honest and pure that we found out that the only reason why your dad was holding back on the idea of having kids right now was that he was scared that he wasn't ready to be a dad. Which is so normal because nobody is ready to be a parent. You just become it and go with the flow in life. We started to talk and I told him how I feel and know from the deepest vein in my heart that the way he lives his life with flow, love, passion, and his own great energy he will be your best dad ever. Your dad is amazing at being alive. His energy matches mine also perfectly. His masculinity will give you so much protection and healing as he showed me. His energy is wild and full of fun. He can't wait to play with you and be wild together. He loves learning and sharing wisdom so don't worry you will learn everything your heart desires. He is loved by many because he is who he is. His body stands perfectly straight and he walks on this earth with so much honesty and passion. I told him how much I love him and that you will love him as a dad. We shared our love with words. We talked about our two years together how we started as neighbors who started talking on the balcony and how our journey together has been a match made in heaven. We grow together and share so much fun and laughter. If we have any difficulty, we talk and we find out together how we can work it out to be a better A team. We listen to each other, we communicate and we trust each other. We have a safe place at the lovely place we call home. One where we always can come to have peace, love, and healing. We never shout at each other when having a fight which is such a relief for me because I have heard too many people screaming already in my life while communication is key, my baby.

While speaking to each other our energy become so warm and filled with love. Our bodies gave out a totally different vibration that we have never felt before. Just so you know, my little baby, your parents were totally sober and so damn aware of this energy. This energy went on and on and got stronger and stronger. It was almost as if the energy of your soul was there with us because the love we felt while making you was insane. They always tell you that the love of your kid is on a different level and I am sure that in that very moment we already felt that love connecting with our love. Thank you my little baby to be here with us since that day. I love you, daddy loves you, and so many people love you already with all we have and all we can give you. You are so welcomed, already so loved and we are so damn happy that we can experience everything with you. Since the day that you are conceived with so much love like my friend told me would happen, I smile so many times with happiness because you are growing in me. I love you. Thank you for this magic.

What we found so lovely to experience too is that we are aware of every single step of the way you became our little growing baby. The day you are conceived there was so much energy released from us that your dad needed to adapt and take some time to process what happened. While meanwhile, your mommy felt how your daddy's little seed went all the way up to my egg on the right side. A few days later, we were in another setting in Toscane. Right now, we were in a tipi tent and this energy, this insane love came around for the second time. We both felt it and your dad saw that there was a little bit of blood. I started giggling because that night we had conceived you, I couldn't sleep because of excitement and the full moon. I looked everything up I needed to know about making babies and when you maybe will be with us in our arms. So while I was giggling, I told your dad that it will be the implantation of my egg in my womb because some women have a little bit of blood while this is happening and I also had some little cramps that day. Oh, little baby, I swear we both started giggling and the love surrounding us was filled with magic. Filled with love, happiness, and with awareness, we were laying in bed. Grateful for everything and lovely to know that our healthy bodies could make you in one perfect go. Our instinct since that day really knew that you are in our lives since that day but the waiting game was still on because a pregnancy test couldn't be taken yet and we still needed to wait. That day, we danced on the beach with so much love, happiness, and passion. We enjoyed life and we laughed so much while being so curious if you would be with us in the next 9 months. Our little secret, our little magical moment which I can write about but only we know how it felt.

By the time we got back home, I was every day really tired. Literally, your mommy started mourning 10min after she woke up every day haha. Which is a beautiful sign of a baby growing in you.

29 September 2022 I woke your daddy up after his night shift. I was already so excited to do the pregnancy test that I couldn't wait anymore my body burst out of energy. While waking your daddy up with this energy, he didn't really know how to manage his energy around me. To make a story short I started crying in the corner of the bed because I felt like I was the only one excited about doing the test. My pregnancy hormones become really high and at that very moment, we both were sure that I was pregnant just because of how I started to cry. But at that very moment there I was crying and your dad showed me how lovely his masculinity is. He came and hold me so there was space for me to cry, to let my emotions go out of my body. He showed me that he is here even if my anxiety tells me otherwise. After a while, he started talking and giving me peace of mind about how happy we both would be if I were pregnant of you. So we did the test and damn how happy we were that we made you and that test was positive. Words can not explain it. Giggling, laughing, shouting, and expressing pure love and joy. There was such a big party going on while receiving this news on that little test. I kept on looking at the test and your beautiful dad. Our world is changing and ever since that day we are so happy because we are having a little baby made by us. A little mix of Ruben and Amber. Our little one, we love you. For now, our little secret, and by the time people read this, you will not be only our miracle in this universe. Can't wait to share this news with everyone and we both can't wait to share life with you. I already talk to you and I know you feel our love. Grateful for this journey in this universe. My two most loved souls. I really can't express how much love there is between us 3. But damn this is exactly the reason why I always knew I wanted to become a mommy and that with your daddy.

By now, the important people know about you growing in my womb. I filmed most of them, just so one day you can view how much love and happiness people share from only hearing the news that you will be soon with us. You are loved, my baby. People want to spoil you, see you, meet you and hug you when you arrive in this big world. We are all here to show you this magical world. We are all here for you.

I am so grateful that since I met your father the power of love was there instantly. So much love. And that you are a part of us now. We love you, always.

Sincerely,

Your spiritual mami.

18/12/22