It is okay to be not okay

Don't hide your secrets.

If you do people can find them out and use them against you.

It is unreal how badly some people only wanna talk about others.

When you talk about your secrets you set yourself free, you aren't living with lies around the secrets anymore.

How scary it may look we all have a story or different stories to tell.

I've always been an honest person who can't accept lies.

I've always been a complicated girl as soon as I started to talk.

Some old friends try to explain people how I'm before they meet me. Even this is a really difficult challenge.

Why? It can go two different ways.

I like the energy of the person and they will learn in the first 5 min I'm crazy and I say what I want to say. Or I hate the energy of the person and they will exactly know why their energy doesn't match mine. Oh, and yes they also get to know it in the first 5 min on a crazy unexcepted way.

In the past I made a lot of people angry with being myself and I found some crazy lovely friends who stood by me and those are the ones I love, they got more attention/affection from me than I gave to myself.

Sometimes the table turns around, I've been putting more energy in myself than the ones I love.

Does it means that I love them less than before? No way, it means that I'm learning to love myself and to open my eyes to look why they were standing next to me.

Showing my writings is setting myself free. I lose my secrets and I'm slowly giving my past a place. People don't have to know so much information about you. Who taught you this information and is it what you really believe? As far as I know society teach you a lot of lies and a thousand of studies shows that talking is the best thing to do and keeping it for yourself makes you feel like you are the only person in this big world with this experience.

Do I mind the fact I'm crazy and not normal like somebody else? No, did you ever find the answer what an normal person is? For me it is just a word society taught us so we always feel like we are somebody that doesn't fit in a box. It is okay to be not okay. This is one of my favorite sentence that I love to shout to myself and the ones I love.

17/06/2018