Never forget what your soul desires

I have always wanted to save others. But I've stopped doing it and got the energy to try to save myself. It was nice to meet you and share all those moments together. I will always see your furture before you will realise it but I'm done with giving my energy because after all I will remain the bad person who you/they can blame.

If I could choose a superpower: I would like that the people I love could see how I see/experience them through flesh, blood, bones, tears and laughs. Not the version they make of themselves or others make for them.

No worries, it isn't the first time that I took all my energy to write an honest letter to a person I love, in the hope the person will understand how negative my words about them can be, there will always be more positive ones if they only could be honest with themselves and read how and why I love that person through flesh, blood, bones, tears and laughs. It isn't the first time that it seems hopeless.

No worries, it isn't the first time I put my energy in trying to save someone I loved with hours of taking, hours of energy I put in saving them, hours of trying to feel what they are feeling, hours of trying to understand what happened, hours of trying to find a way to make their life better, hours of trying to make them happy and please them with my company. Even when the person I loved tried/put a thousand knives in my chest, even when I was bleeding of their actions I would still try to pick all the pieces together for them so they could live with what they did and put a smile on their faces. Why? Because I would do anything for love.

I've learned my lessons and I keep all my energy to myself. It wasn't just one person who put the blame on me while they couldn't be honest to themselves. I find it sad because I'm a special person to have in your life. One of the reasons is that I'm a crazy, young girl who does everything for the people I love. I used to be there for any small/big thing every single person I loved experienced in their life but it changed as soon as I couldn't get the minimum of any relationship stands for and that is honesty.

To the people who never respond with honesty to their own personal letter that I wrote for them: How in the world could I put all my energy into a person who isn't honest in showing their real selves? How can I love somebody who is dishonest with themselves?

14/07/2018