People lie to themselves

I feel sorry for the people I left behind because they were lying to me. I'm always being honest to the people I love and couldn't get my head around the lies. I realized now they are just lying to themselves and I can't stand the fact they tell you what you wanna hear instead of being honest. The only way you can live with yourself is when you are honest about yourself even when you can't stand the truth. Moving forward takes time and honesty. Realizing you had a hard time and you don't love the circle you are in is the first step to change yourself.

After all they don't need to live with me for the rest of their life but with there own history. I look at my own history and see how I treated random people was awful, I rolled very young in ugly situations. Everything I did I'm responsible for and I admit it. I don't hide behind lies for myself. I don't let my own history suffocate me.

04/04/2018